It's taken me a real long time to be able to control my reactions. That was SO's biggest thing with me. I'd make sarcastic remarks or gt instantly angry. True, after I calmed down or already said not so very nice things, I would usually have a different reaction...but the initial one was what always caused problems.
These days I sometimes err on the side of caution, not saying things that perhaps SHOULD be said, but I still think it's better than what I used to do.
And funny thing is, I KNOW when he expects my "old" reaction and I sometimes have fun with reacting differently.
Going dark is something I've had in the back of my mind for a while, since he's still so indecisive. However, YES, today my motivation is out of frustration! I'll be honest.
