Such a sad story! It really does drive home how short life can be.
I really haven't posted much regarding your sitch (in fact, I don't think I have posted at all), but I have been closely following it. I must tip my hat to you, because you are doing so well in dealing with the sitch. You truly are an inspiration for a lot of people on here and to me specifically. I have a feeling that no matter what happens, you will be a much better person. Thank you for posting religiously and relating your experiences.
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu