Sorry OT, I didn't get back in time for your request. Anything else I should do?
Yesterday SO came over...I've been trying to distance as much as I can - i.e., not answering phone calls; getting out; being elusive - yesterday the morning started off with an email (after skipping his late night phone calls - I think there were about 4 of them) - "I know its a hard time for all of us. especially me. long story". I only replied with a Good morning and skipped asking any further details. He was coming over and I actually suggested to him that he didn't have to if he didn't want to. He took real offense, asking "Are you trying to get rid of me?" I told him I was only trying to be considerate of the limited time he has to himself and if he had things he needed to do, it would be fine if he skipped a day. I also asked him if he had any ideas about Easter, asking him to give me his suggestions by today or I'd be making my own plans. (Worded a little nicer than that.)
When he got here, he had brought lunch, so we ate. He asked if I heard something on his show and I hadn't. His response "That doesn't surprise me". I just looked at him and didn't say anything. He did some work on the computer and I decided to nap. Later on he came in and we were laying there....he said something along the lines of he wished I would make advances on him because it makes him feel special. I very bluntly said "Don't you have enough women out there to make you feel special?" Whack away - I know. His response, "Don't you get it yet? There aren't any other women." I really have no idea WTH that means. Could mean there aren't any other wom"E"n and only one OW; or it could mean that he's not even seeing her anymore. I have no idea....and didn't dwell on it. I did lay there thinking for a bit, then he had his back to me so I rolled over, snuggled up against his back with my arm around his waist. That led to....
I don't know if it was wrong to do or not. It seemed right at the time. I don't regret it, and am owning my part in it, OT. I don't know that I noticed it before, I always thought his LL were WOA and AOS, but it seems a really big deal to him that I still want him sexually. I know there's other girls out there that would be with him that way - I've seen the emails, I've even heard them...so, I ave to wonder why he turns to me when he doesn't have to.
Whatever, the consequence, lol, it's done. We probably won't see him until Sunday or Monday since we're going away this weekend. He had said he would drive to his brothers on Sunday, and I suggested to him that he didn't have to, that I could find someone to watch the kids for me so that he could have the day to himself if he wanted. I haven't asked his plans, and won't. It's up to him to decide and I'm making my plans so that they don't rely on him. If he shows up, he shows up. If not, no big deal.
