Thanks, whitelight.

Already, I'm having a crappy day. Don't know what it is. Feeling very frustrated and impatient today. The time change probably has something to do with it. And the fact that my computer monitor is dying as I type this. Fading in & out, off & on - driving me nuts. The screen is reddish and just shuts off & goes black periodically. I need a new one.

SO was here both Saturday & Sunday. Nothing eventful occurred. I was still sick Saturday, so I mostly layed on the couch and made him go to the store for me. Yesterday it was really nice outside, so we did some work out there.

Today when he gets here, I'm going to get out. I'm feeling better and have some shopping to do for the weekend coming up; I also have a few more job applications I need to drop off.

And.....I'm in no mood to deal with him today. I'm afraid I'm going to snap and go off or something. Over the weekend he mentioned his upcoming schedule, and he's booked for weddings/parties every Saturday night for the next month. That reminded me of the whole schedule/kid thing. It bothered me, but I haven't said anything. What's the point? What am I supposed to do? This coming weekend me & the kids are going upstate, I'm going to leave Friday night (Maybe not even tell him!) and come back Sunday. Then the following weekend is Easter. I guess that has me sad as well. I don't know if I should make my own plans with the kids or suggest something to him...or what. We always had dinner & family here for the day. I hate all these unknowns. But, I guess that's my own fault, right? I should just DO whatever I want. If I were a real b!tch, I'd take the kids away that weekend, too. And too bad for SO. I'm thinking about it. Why the hell should we sit around waiting for the fairy father to fly in on Sunday morning, or afternoon - whenever he wakes up.

See, I AM in a really crabby mood. I wish I could figure out the source of it. Could be this living in limbo and trying to find a job and lack of money...and I could probably whine some more, but I'll shut up now.