Had a very nice weekend.....took the girls to the rollerskating party, which was lots of fun! Who-hoo, I still got it! LMAO
My sister & I ventured out on Saturday night and that was fun, too. I drank too much and paid for it yesterday! LOL SO called once while I was out and he seemed PO'd that I was out. Oh well. I did have one thought that reminded of GH though - that is, re: his W and him working. Sometimes I wonder WHY SO gets mad when I'm out...and it dawned on me that maybe he gets upset because I'm "out" and he's "working"....there's lots of times where me & the girls do things and he can't because he's working.....gave things a little different spin.
Anyway, he seemed a little PO'd, for whatever reasons, however I didn't dwell on it. He came over yesterday, asked me to help him out in the garage, I did for a short while, then went back to the house to do my own thing (mainly lay on the couch with a headache, lol, and watch the race.) After a while, his friend stopped by and finished helping him to do what needed to be done outside.
After friend & GF left, SO asked "what's for dinner", lol, and fell asleep on the couch. I didn't say anything, I didn't really mind, didn't mind about dinner, either. I let him sleep for a bit, made dinner, then woke him and we ate. It was a nice day. It felt good - nice, pleasant.
Today, I've woken up feeling "at peace", I think is the best way to describe it. I feel like I've turned a corner. I've really realized that SO is going thru some things - some I understand, some I don't and probably never will. I also realize that no matter what happens between "us", things will be OK. And with that in mind, I feel like I'm miles ahead of him somehow. I realize that if "I" decide to change my course, SO is going to face things that I've already been thru. Meaning, I have been thinking a lot about going very dark. Up until now I've been attempting to show him how it "could" be; giving him the benefits of seeing my changes, being a friend, accepting him as he is. I feel it's coming time to take that away. Not for him, or us, but for me.
Today, it's beautiful outside. Sun is shining and I see my daffodils are up about 3 inches! Yeah - Spring!
