hmmmm, i've found myself "reviewing" the last 3 years a lot lately, I guess trying to sort stuff out in my mind and make sense of it, put it into some sort of framework....I think I'm trying to "encrypt" it into a "bump in the road" in the life our marriage.
anyway, I was thinking this past week, I know exactly the day when the EA turned P....I recall "that spring" of '03....H said he was going out with a friend, a guy that he used to occasionally go out with...I said "ok"...H was really really weird, hard to explain...he was never that way before though. Wouldnt tell me where they were going. Didnt meet the guy at our house (always did)...H was out much later than he said he would be, and I couldnt sleep, so i called his cell at like 2 am....he was furious....wouldnt have been if he was out for pizza and beer with his friend. within the last month made the comment that I shouldnt worry about monster, she was nothing more than a nickel whore, a $20 meal and cup of coffee was all it took....and he commented that another female coworker had stated that she couldnt imagine any self-respecting woman having sex on the first date when he was talking about monster (annonymously)... I guess both of us are working on a retrospective. H also commented once that he wondered what unfinished business he had from a college relationship that he had to work on so he chose monster. He's said she reminds him so much of that girl, and that he used to even call her that name (which always pissed her off)....the db coach I talked with even mentioned that was most likely "part of the story"....
