Quote: Geez, Deb, could you ASSume any more!!!!!!!!
UMMMMM-probably...I am trying to resist the challenge. I'm not sure what's wrong with me that I've gotten off on the wrong foot so much lately.
I guess something's different, again, and I can't put my finger on it. I just get "antsy", it takes absolutely nothing to stir it all up still, which is not good, I know.
I wish I could trust him, I guess that's the gist of it all. I certainly don't, and from my perspective he isnt particularly concerned about it (he may see it differently, admittedly) I guess part of what makes me so antsy is my own ambivalence about staying or going if he goes back to her. It's been darn near a year since he stopped doing "paperwork" on weekends, but it still just drives me over the edge when he says anything about it. I don't know how to ask him for reassurance, if it's time to, or really even what it would take to reassure me although wearing his wedding ring would be a start.
changing the subject: I'm thinking about how to build more activity into my day (physical, I mean). If a person did some resistance training with bands for 20 - 30 minutes in the middle of the day, is that any good if you don't work up a sweat? I'm thinking i could maybe do that at lunch some days, but hate to get too sweaty...don't know if it does any good if you don't.
