wanted to post that before I lose another one...but anyway, after the convo about the "pick ups" in the morning, I did have one of those brain niggles about him switching to walk in the afternoon. But, he seemed "different" somehow when he got back. so, don't know....not too upset, surprisingly.
Today H is in a snit about work, about staff changes in the out of town office and getting his tail feathers nipped by one of the med staff about a client that isnt his. My guess is maybe they're a bit sensitized from monster's tales of woe. Anyway, he's really pissing and moaning about how he needs to get another job, just doenst know where to look, etc.,....well, yeah, I wish he would get another job, and I think with some creativity he could find one within commuting distance. but.....he has to do the work. I asked if he thought something might be opening up at the place he interviewed at before (I think about 2 years ago)...and he responded "no, they arent an option in my book".....interesting, since I found an email between him and monster around the time of that interview discussing a job there that he wasnt going to take even though it paid more. I suppose so he wouldnt have to leave the poor defenseless baby monster here to fend for herself. Sorta sucks, he's always moaning about money and we could use a better income. But, oh no, he didnt really spend much money on her....ok, that's my vent.
When he gets in one of these snits, I always figure/wonder if they havent gotten to fighting again, which of course does mean contact....
H did tell me that he got a voice mail message on his phone with someone eating and breathing...that he had no clue who it was, and he can't get the phone to call out. huh, not sure if I believe him, but I do know that the phone is one of those "prepaid" things the kids got him, and SIL commented that those numbers change because people let them expire, and then you get phone calls to peoples old numbers and they use up your minutes...so it could be true, could be he's lying again. I just know either he's gonna have to buy the stupid replacement cards or monster is because I'm out of it.
He also told me that when he and monster had the last email battle, he called her to settle it because his supervisor told him to...I do believe the supervisor told him that, the damn dummy, because it was discussed in administrative meetings. Said he'd gotten an email from monster that she and the entire med staff were disappointed that he didnt support them, that he replied he expects people to do their job and not screw-over "my people" no matter who they are, and that he never heard back from her.
I have to admit I looked at monster's personal ad...see she hasnt been active in over 2 weeks, dont' know if that's good or bad. has to mean either she's hooked up with somebody, or H has given her the bums rush again.
I dunno really what to think, but I still have the gut feeling this time that they arent back together. what makes the difference is the way he is towards me, the way he holds and kisses, which probably makes no sense, but it has always been a fail-proof indicator before. hard to explain.
Oh yeah, I also had the thought that one reason my melt-down may have been so quick that weekend, it was around an anniversary of sorts. April 19 the year before was the day of the annual meeting they both skipped out of and who knows what. I still remember the screaming fight that ensued when I got home that night.
This Friday is our 27th anniversary, I have to work the AM, havent made any plans, not sure if I should, a bit hesitant after February. I'll probably have some "twinges" that day also, as I recall last year a week or so later finding the email monster sent him ON OUR ANNIVERSARY talking about all the many great and happy years she was sure they would have together! yes, that loud retching sound is me.
So, that's the rest of the story. I swear, I don't know if it's me or it's him. I really don't. I keep thinking I need to read more through slowly's threads, I know she's had some of the same "stuff".....
