You're so right, 14, about me having been icky and he was patient, and also about the balance. That is really tough for me. And he does bring me down, way down, with his depression. and sometimes he is clingy...I had at one time thought about taking off work today, didnt, and commented last night i wished I had, and he burst into tears, said "I thought you did, I need you here!" then kind of cheered, up, saying "but you wont be gone all day"...just so weird and hard to deal with. sigh.