Just caught up w/ your news. I think you're handling this extremely well. IKWYM about being prepared to chart the rest of your path solo -- but I think that can still be a happy path. Time will tell.
In the meantime I wonder if you're finding yourself a little ministry, what w/ all these newly LBSs coming out of the woodwork. You know how helpful it is to find someone who understands.
Keep us posted on what you're up to. GAL will come, keep working on it/ thinking about it. If you haven't been doing it, you just need to take a little step out there to start. It doesn't have to cost a lot either. Church functions can be a good place to start, for example. Just get out a little bit, get yourself some connections. There's a whole wide world out there, just waiting for you to find it.