My heart goes out to you.... I know what you are going through and I'm sorry you find yourself in a similar place that I was in prior to my divorce being final.
xh pushed and pushed for me to work, and as I found my first job, it wasn't good enough..... nothing will be good enough for you either. They are just miserable, and intend on making us just as miserable.... they don't want to let go,yet they don't have the ability to stop the process.
They are conflicted, tormented, and because of this, they reactions are so vile, so opposite of how we are acting. They don't want fair, and for me, it felt as though the only thing xh wanted was to destroy me.
It's not you hon, I know you are doing all you can. I remember being where you are now, as it really tore up my self esteem, and caused me a great deal of confusion.
I am glad you are sticking to your guns.... keep those boundaries, and don't accept less than you deserve.... BUT, also keep in mind, your H may just do what xh did, and not abide by the divorce decree after all was said and done.... it certainly sounds as though it may be the path he is going to choose.
Get as much as you can as a garnishment, or income withholding order.... although it may not protect you completely, at least you will have the orders with the court. You may not get the support you need all the time, BUT, you will be able to go after it, in time.
God Bless you... I wish there was something I could do to make this easier for you. Keep you chin up, keep moving forward, keep the faith, and you will eventually make it to the other side too.
Take care, get lots of rest when you can, and don't forget your vitamins.
Love,
Laughing
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
