What a great attitude you show for having been through all you have. Your faith is strong and mighty and will see you through. God is always with you and has been to get you to the place you are now. Sure you don't want to be alone for the rest of your life and He knows this and has plans for you. It may be that your marriage will be restored or that there will be another path for you to follow, but either way you will not be alone.
When God allowed us to suffer with the betrayal by our husbands (...not caused to happen, but allowed), He knew that He would be with us through it. Our suffering served some greater purpose. I have offered mine up as often as I remembered to. Suffering lets our souls flourish and ultimately brings us so much closer to God.
Is your apartment hunting completed and the money part of things settled yet? Bet you can't wait to be settled in your new home.
