Who am I married too? How can people be so duplicitous? Should I be happy he is ending it with her, if he really does? I mean, from the tone of his emails to her, he has never really had any intention of breaking it off, has he been faking it with me? All the "moments" we've had the past month or so, what the hell was that? I know I am breaking all the rules ruight now. I don't feel desperate or psycho or anything, I really feel, at the moment, like whatever. Go back to that place you were in April, darling, where you were enjoying the moments and knowing that H was a headcase and not reliable or honest. In fact, I seem to recall wise grasshopper warning me of more BS that could be on the way...The thing is, while on the one hand I should be glad to be witnessing the potential demise of the OW relationship, I am hurt that he still lies, to me, to her, to our friends, how do I know what is real? I don't.
