Not much new on my front, things seem to be going rather well actually. Haven't posted because, well, it is easier to post when venting, don't want to jinx it! Had a very short talk with H Sunday, his phone buzzed Saturday night around 12:30am, I knew it was OW, and it bummed me out of course, mostly just because I had that on my mind when falling asleep, and it was still there when I woke up. Told H later in the day that it bothered me, not anything he was doing, but more that it was pathetic on her part, he told this girl it wasn't going anywhere, and she still texts him all the time, especially in the middle of the night, he barely responds (never responds at night, FYI). He said she still thinks they are friends, and it bugs him too, it is annoying. Told H that I wasn't asking him to stop, or asking why, was more just frustrated that it happened. Otherwise, great weekend together, I know that if I continue to not pressure, it will die off.
Monday he had C, afterwards he reiterated that he is happy with the decisions he is making in his life...I can feel the change between us, our interactions feel more natural. I am still trying not read too much into anything, there is a lot of other things to focus on, namely my need to find a job. This is a bit of a scary issue, as we are broke as broke right now, and financial management has ALWAYS been an issue in our relationship. Strangely though, in the past I would become obsessed when we had no money, freaking out being stressed all the time, but now, while it is an issue, I don't think about it all day long.
In some ways it is good, if we had extra cash right now, we would probably spend it trying to keep things busy and fun, essentially filling voids and not just learning how to BE together, so in a sense these tight times are maybe bringing us closer together rather than stressing us out. (fingers crossed)
