Thanks grasshooper, I have read some of your posts before, I appreciate your visit.
I am working on GAL, harder in a new town with no friends and all, but I have already joined the gym and am looking for a new job, as well as into some classes in various areas for fun and to meet people. In the past, he always responded so heavily to any movements I made towards moving on, so maybe as that begins to happen he will start to remember why he wanted me here in the first place.
I get a lot of comfort in the fact that OW is so far away, but I know she has been pining for him, too, so I don't no how long it will be before she is coming to visit him.
I also truly believe that I will survive this regardless of the outcome, I feel a lot of strength in my own self right now...it's just that like everyone else here, I so don't want it to be this way.
I made the mistake in a heated moment of telling him that I could not stand by and let him resume contact with her while we were living together, that just pushed him into this thought process of not wanting to disrespect me yet wanting to keep in touch with her, even wanting to see her. Now I feel like with things so much in the air, I don't want to put the boys through another seperation until we KNOW that is the path we are on. So I guess for now I can only detach and let go and remove my expectations and hopes from our relationship, focus on myself.
