PL, I will reply to you first and Rob, I will get to you after lunch.
PL, I realize now that your word, exhaustion is really the one I was looking for that entire post. It's not detachment or lack thereof, it's just simple exhaustion and the letting down of my guard and slowing of growth I feel because of it. I need to recharge.
As for the GAL stuff, I think my major problem, not just now, but for my entire marriage is that my enjoyment, MY PERSONAL, ALONE enjoyment comes from things that are found in my home. I don't need to go out to do them. Mainly this is because I REALLY love my photography work and I enjoy being on the computer, editing the weeks shoots. I also like video games and spending time with my kids. All that can be done at home. Sure, I take the boys out ALL the time, and I am away from home doing photo gigs all the time too so I do have a life and I DO enjoy the hell out of it. Like I said, and have said in my threads before, it's the idea that I need to maybe be HOME more but not be AROUND as much.
I really appreciate your words today. They really helped me realize what my prevailing issue is. I need to really just give myself time off from thinking/acting in this sitch and do my little GAL thing for awhile. I actually did do that last night and it helped a bit, but more is needed. I did that in the beginning and it worked. I just need to do it again, and then don't ever stop.
I have more to say on this but I will make it part of my reply to Rob.
