You and I talked alot via e-mail, but I forgot how important this board was to me! I had many dark times that everyone here helped me through! Complete strangers who opened their hearts to me, and in the end many of them (like you) I consider true friends!
You mentioned getting rid of the anger, resentment, and te fatigue. That went away for me once I became comfortable with MYSELF and MY decisions. Once I became comfortable in my own skin and said to myself I deserve better and the only one who will give it to me is myself, my energy and outlook on life went through the roof!
That is hard to do when we are living through such a dark period in our life. There is lite at the end of tunnel we just need faith to know it is there!
The question is would I be this happy and comfortable if my W and I weren't working things out?
My answer is a big honest YES! I felt this way once I made the decision that I am a good man. I may not be perfec, and I have alot of things I could improve on but I deserve better. When I thought like that it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders. Can you do that without moving towards the big D like me? Absolutely! Just know in your mind that you are a good man, don't beat yourself up, and you will find happiness on your own! It is up to your W to decide in sharing in it with you!
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
