Why, if my W is "trying" to get back to "us" does she insist on being awol for most of the day, most days? IF she is indeed not with OM anymore, then why the mystery? Is there any explanation that is NOT her still with OM? I mean why would she not understand that mystery is NOT conducive to reconciliation? Is it because I have not directly said it isn't? Is it her still exercising her need for freedom, but not necessarily freedom to be with OM? I know, unproductive speculation, and worse than that, I am trying to get you all in on it! lol.
I am on my own little mini-rollercoaster with all this. One minute I am ok with "living" and the next I want to start in on the questions. I guess it's all part of observing my silent partner and trying to make sure things I am seeing COULD represent progress, if not actually do represent it. For now, COULD is good enough, but some things are hard to fit into the COULD mold. I just have to make sure I don't act on the feelings of the ride...
