Yesterday was a pretty good day. We were supposed to do a ton of housework but it was TOO perfect out and we decided to blow everything off and go to Disney World (sorry, I know many of you now hate me) for the day. My W has long lamented that we live 20 minutes away from DW with 2 kids the perfect age to enjoy the parks, and we never go. She's always wanted to have annual passes so we could go all the time. I have too, but the cost was too much. Well, we looked into a pass that was only good for about 1/2 the year and it was affordable in our budget so we just did it. All this was VERY spontaneous and it felt great, once again, to be able to do that. We are not going to have to slow down on the spending but we are, for once in our married life, getting to do a lot of what we want to do. I know money doesn't make you happy, but in this case, it's sure helping.
So, we went to the park and it was CROWDED. We went with another couple and their two girls. It was a fun day, mostly without conflict between W and I. The only incident was when W was in line with her friend for something to drink and needed money. S5 had run off to a playground and I didn't want to leave him to walk over to her. I did anyway (husband of friend was watching the kids at this point) and when I got over there, I snapped that she could have walked over to me and I didn't want to come over because S5 was running away. She didn't like my tone but SHE never really said anything, it was her friend that told me W was pissed over it. If she was, she didn't show it. She was quiet but in a few minutes she was over it and we were back to having fun again.
----- I have to interrupt this and just say that I am really upset right now for reasons totally unrelated to my sitch. The wife of a co-worker of mine just passed away from lung cancer. She was perfectly healthy, or so they thought, 3 weeks ago, checked into the hospital for some chest pain and is now gone. He is one of the kindest people I know and is totally devastated. My thoughts and prayers are with him. -------
Anyway, in light of that I will shorten and sweeten this post. We had fun and it was another good family day. I guess at this point, considering W doesn't want to talk, I can't ask for more. I am still confused about all this but I am determined to make the best of limbo and stop being negative about it. IT IS a far cry from where I was a few months ago and for that I am eternally grateful. I think my need to talk will pass because it is directly connected to my need to control and inability to deal with "living" for myself. I am back to needing her to validate how I am feeling and as we all know, the WAS do not usually do that for us, at least at the point I am at now. So, back to DBing and I am going to try to put a happy face on my sitch. Needless to say, with what just happened to my friend's wife, my perspective has shifted a bit.
