I did not mean to say I had forgiven her, just that I WOULD forgive her should she ask for that.
GH... hmmm... read that line again honey... you know very well that forgiveness is something that comes from within ourselves, not just because someone asks us to. Now, I KNOW you know that... you will forgive her on your own time schedule not because she will ever ask you to. To completely free yourself emotionally, you will have to forgive... doesn't mean forget. That is a completely different subject. Few people can truly forget, especially in painful sitches like this. But forgiveness is something completely different. You find forgiveness within your heart and soul for someone. It may be come as easy as tomorrow or it may take years... the trouble with forgiveness, if you do not truly forgive anyone for their actions, the pain will continue on... within both individuals. I've seen it time and time again... someone is hurting, the other person has done all they can to try and make it up to the person they hurt... but the hurt person can't forgive they spend all their time making the guilty party even guiltier as if they can never repay the pain and hurt they caused... everything that happens to the guilty party is justified, well-deserved, karma, whatever you want to call it. So who wins... no one... neither party is completely set free... and babe you've got to set yourself free in order for you both to heal from this. You have to decide if you can forgive and work on the forgiveness for her to be able to give and love again without feeling as though their will be reprecutions to her.
