I too think you did great....sure you're going to have a reaction to the negative stimuli, its only natural, but its your response to that stimuli that is important.
Something you touched upon in your post really resonated with me because I know I have felt all those things that you have as well....screw this, I'm tired of dealing with the drama, etc. But the point is, and you couldn't have said any better, every day we wake up and we CHOOSE to DB to the best of our abilities. Each day comes and goes, some better than others, but we are all still here doing what we can to save our M's.
You are not pathetic, you have feelings and emotions, just like everyone else...again, it how you manifest those feelings and emotions that counts. I think you did fine. Keep on keeping on!
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
