You are just coming to the point where you have that "ah ha" moment and realize that you really ARE in control of you.
I hope that you find SOME way to occupy yourself while he is gone, miss a few calls, and really give yourself the opportunity to live without him OR the constant worry about him. There will be time for all that when he gets back.
Look, you already know he's going, and what he's going for. You know you can't stop him so reality is defined. Accept it (actually I think you already have) and now consider this a vacation from all this for YOU!
Truly, I sometimes wish my W would go somewhere (not with OM mind you, never think I am diminishing how much that would hurt) so I can REALLY do some things for myself. When she is around, it's hard to actually GAL, etc.
I think you are doing a GREAT job now. The email decision is the first step and I think it will snowball from there. Keep it up girl!
