Quote: So much, other than just the words that your wife wanted to make things work would have to change. They aren't, and she has no motive to make that happen.
True. The woman she was 'acting like' 4 weeks ago when we shared intimacy and cuddle time together was a partially changed woman. If we were to get together that would be good, and I WOULD make sure she kept on her path or growth, and WE worked on having a marriage.
The woman she is TODAY, well, back to vacant most of the time - or angry. Afraid to 'release' her sexual energy with me (or anyone, she says) because then she gets comfortable. Same with closeness. What to believe?
Todays version of W wouldn't ask to come back. Period. The version from 4 weeks ago might have, and it would have a lot of potential to work. So, I know she has to change quite a bit AGAIN. We were so close.
Quote: I think that it is awful and selfish for her to expect that you will just stay status quo until summer. She has friends, she has a dad...can't she move in with them?
Well, no. Not in this area. At least nobody who I can think of.
Quote: O.K., you may not be ready for that step. But, when you doubt what you are doing, please ask yourself if this is really what you want for the rest of your life. You deserve so much more, and I don't think that you really believe that.
I think you are right. Here is what I believe. I think I'm too old (47) not really great looking, but pretty decent. short, a bit out of shape. Still very very emotionally weak at times. Still struggling to beat depression and still getting beat up. I
In the back of my mind I don't see anyone else wanting someone like me. At least no woman of quality. After all, if W rejects me after all I've done then who would find me desirable? I can look at the work I've done on myself and I KNOW for a fact that it has been genuine, and heartfelt. At least I can say that. I'm a good man and probably once I am 'rid' of W so I don't see her all the time I'll slowly feel better about myself. But being a single dad will also impact my life.
It isn't that I WANT my W back so I can 'feel better' and not have to be looking for someone else. She's just such a special woman, to me, to everyone she touches. just gone now. Glimpses of the real her now and then hurt the most.
Detaching helps, because I don't talk to her much or see her so it's like she is 'gone'.
I hate to be so depressed and down because it isn't helping me to see a 'great' future. Just some more months of pain, followed by being a single dad.
But, I can't blame her for not seeing what I see. I've been studying and working on relationships. She has been trying to figure out who she is.
