Quote: Your sitch has me on the edge of my seat, because everything points to the reconciliation that you deserve. We are waiting to see the results. I want to see your W wake up to what she has right in front of her-- you!
So it IS a Soap Opera!
I don't know if I 'deserve' a reconciliation. I do know I have done the work, and walked the walk. I have become who I am supposed to be. Has she? Will She? I don't know.
Sometimes I do wonder if maybe she isn't going to be able to want to be with me. To be CAPABLE of being with me.
I have to say something that came to me tonite. After getting to know a few of the women on this board who are extrememly strong, capable people, my standards are diferent now. She is going to have to step up to the plate and meet those standards. Not just 'decide' we're going to 'reconcile'. My life is not going to be the same again so it better be with someone who is not going to make me go through something like this EVER again in my life.
John, you may find you feel similarly in the future. Do you know what your standards are?
Quote: 3. You handle your day-to-day crisis and R related events in a very level-headed manner. Your actions and comments to your W are never driven by ego or pride, but rather patience and understanding of the situation at hand. You seem to have an uncanny ability to know just what to say.
You forgot 'fear'. Sometimes I act out of fear. We all do.
The "ability to know what to say" is a gift. All my life I have always known 'what to say' when someone is up, down, happy, sad, hurt, afraid, confused. Part of that comes from a strong intuition. BUT I have ignored that intuition too many times because of other needs or needyness I had.
We all have that intuition in varying degrees. We just don't always choose to listen to it. That's when we have problems, when intuition says one thing and we do another.
Like today when I have had my doubts about her ever getting real. We're like 'housemates'. HER space, MY space, HER stuff, MY stuff. Until we have to deal with kid related things like dental work they had today. Then it's OUR money and OUR insurance. Hey, it's MY money and MY insurance. You didn't earn it. I did. In the future you still won't support the kids, I will. Stop being such a foolish woman and see that together, we are greater than we are separatly.
Quote: 3. Your writing and posting style make for easy reading. (i.e. plenty of paragraphs, CAPS for emphasis, etc.) You are a good story teller.
Thanks John. I am lucky I have good writing skills. Another blessing.
I sure can spin quite a yarn here. Now here's a scary thought: What if it IS ALL JUST A STORY? What if I've been making it all up??? Just so I could get aa reaction from people. Maybe I get off on that kind of power? Hmmmm, kinda makes you wonder now doesn't it?
