Around 1 pm W, D10, D15 and W's Girlfriend are hanging around playing card games. Since I generally don't play with them I take the opportunity to go to my office and work on the stuff I DID NOT get done last week because W was out of town and I was MOM AND DAD all week.
So I say 'bye' and D15 says "Where are you going?" I said "you know where I'm going, to my office". D15 says "But it's Sunday, who works on Sunday??"
So I say "I do because I have a lot to catch up on. This is what I do sometimes. And, theres way too much 'girl energy' here for me!"
D15 makes another smart remark about me working on Sunday, how normal people don't work on weekends.
Then W's GF says Jokingly "Well your parents have never been normal!"
Which is true. W often works Satudays and will work Sunday if she gets a client.
Then W adds "Too much female hormones huh?" I say jokingly 'Yeah, it's more than my testosterone can balance out"
So I leave. But I am PISSED at D15. She basically makes it look like I'm abandoning the family when in reality they are abandoning ME. When W's GF visits the 4 of them hang out together. Not exactly something I would want to do.
But, not being around and isolating is something I USED to do and D15 mouthing off like that in front of W started me thinking that W was remembering those 'bad times'.
So, here I am thinking that W is thinking I suck. And I'm pissed at D15 for being such a jerk and saying such judgemental things in front of her mother. Of course she's 15 and doesn't REALLY know what I have been through and what I'm trying to do to save this family.
Well, had to vent it. I'm sure that when I come home ON TIME for dinner it will be forgotten. But it still raises my anxiety level.
Actually, I am probably making this all up and they didn't think anything after I left. I just hate being in a place where ever interaction has to be examined.
