Lil, I'd roll with it. Not being aroused isn't the end of the world. You know you have the ability to be aroused and orgasm fairly quickly so I wouldn't worry about it. Having been on such a dry spell, things are bound to be awkward and un-sexy for a time, don't you think? Only practice and a regular sex life will get you both to the place where you are aroused at the *thought* of ML and each other's touch. Right now, those two things are fraught with so many bad memories that it's going to be awkward until you begin replacing those memories with new ones.
