and there really aren't many left on the boards anymore. I miss you all.

I'm still here. I keep up with your sitch. I just don't have much more to add since my sitch is so much different.

I am very defensive, I know. I get particularly defensive if I feel that the other person is speaking as if they "know" things about me rather than making suggestions.

Actually Heather, I thought that some of the replies were a bit too "assertive" as well. We come to these boards w/questions and in search of affirmation of our ideas and actions. Everyone has an opinion and is entitled to state it in a respectful manner.

I have noticed a cyclical nature to your postings. Your sitch seems to ebb and flow and with the ebbs, I notice your postings state your frustration and you seem to take a step back. In your last posting you caught yourself and that's a good thing! I've noticed in my own sitch that when I catch myself, I feel better and I don't think that I take a step back or a least the step back is a "baby step" back.

Keep your head and your determination up!

~J