Am I Creating a SSM?

[heatherg]

Hey Chrome, I'm feeling relatively optimistic today, thanks for asking! I had a bump in the road and a slight attitude problem yesterday morning when I woke up to find D3 in bed with H and S5, but I think I recovered in time for H not to notice and for my attitude not to suffer for too long.

I have two things on my mind today. The first is my C session, which is at 4pm. It's been a month since our last session and while I know it's not ideal to space the sessions out that long and it certainly isn't what our C wanted, it is the best we've been able to do because of H's job. We should be able to go next week too unless something changes between now and then. We could have gone last week too for that matter, but she didnt' have anything open in our time frame during the day. So, we're going when we can, which is I guess better than nothing.

The reason that's on my mind is because I'm not sure if I should have a plan or ideas on the sessions or if I should just let her lead the topics/sessions. I guess I could ask her which way she thinks would be the most productive. Yesterday I was thinking I should bring up the A. Now, I'm not so sure. Maybe I should wait for her to bring it up. I feel like the only time I feel 'safe' talking with H about this stuff is when we're there. When we're at home, I avoid R topics like the plague. For instance, I said I was going to tell H last night that I would appreciate it if he didn't bring S3 into his bed anymore and that I would appreciate it even more if S5 also stayed in his bed. But I didn't say a word. He already knows anyway. He just chose to ignore my wishes Monday night, for whatever reason. Or maybe that's my justification for not having to broach an uncomfortable subject. I don't know.

The second thing that's on my mind today is that I'm thinking of buying a simple card for H and just writing in it something to the effect of "i'm glad we're trying". I was thinking of putting something in there regarding a second chance. My question to you all is, should I word it as being grateful that he *gave* me a second chance or should I word it more like '*we* have a second chance'?

Thanks