Well all - no sex of any kind last night conception or otherwise. Instead, my H chose not to share that he was in pain because a friend of his who is having a MLC decided to unload on my H - told him everything that was wrong with H in his view. This is a good friend of over twenty years. Anyway, H didn't tell me that he had this conversation (one of several of that kind in the last month with this man) and that it represented probably the final conversation and the end of the friendship.
Instead, he grabs my hand as I start to touch him while we are on the couch watching tv and says "don't I'm too tired for that." He says, that I can hold his hand or something but "don't go near any erogenous zones (I had been about to run my hand over his chest)." Then he turned his back on me when we went to bed.
This am I called him on that behavior on a voice mail. He then told me about the deal with his friend and said that he understands that I have a "nervous habit" of wanting to touch him but that when I do I need to just hold his hand or otherwise keep my hand still. He was angry with me for encouraging him to try to talk with this guy when we spoke about the sitch on Sunday. Drew the line in the sand about leaving him to make decisions about friends he had before we married.
Folks I am beyond pissed. For one, in the emotional state he was in with the friend thing I couldn't win last night if I had stood on my head while balancing his favorite snack on a tray on my feet. I told him so (not that way) in yet another voice mail and I told him that my wanting to touch him was in no way a nervous tic but rather, it was expressive of my love for him. I also told him that when he didn't tell me about his friend it set me up to do something that he wouldn't like.
The great part is that for some stupid reason my body is ovulating late and we "should" have sex tonight. I honestly don't think I can. We are not only not on the same page but aren't in the same stratosphere.
