I don't actually have a problem carrying per se - more likely, poor egg quality due to age and H's low sperm morphology has been the cause of not getting preggie in the last six cycles. Thus, it seems, we need help. The IUI would allow the good sperm to be separated from the bad, the clomid will increase the egg quality. Miscarriage is still a factor if there is a genetic issue. Genetic issues are, of course, more likely as we age. We are ok with that. We are grandparents four times over and it is fun.
I used to say fun flirty stuff like that to my H regularly and then I got frustrated with it because so many times he just didn't rspond at all or didn't respond in kind. Mostly, he will smile an embarrassed smile. Now I think we are in a place where I can start doing more of that sort of thing again.
Overall, I am feeling more positive about the quality of our interactions. It is not always easy and I do get frustrated with the preemptive strike but I will keep working on things. I am currently reading a new book which I plan to discuss on this thread soon. It looks at the nature of grievance of relationship from a Bhuddist perspective.
