LOVE the book! I think maybe a bumper sticker on my forehead might help.
Honey,
I haven't addressed that issue nearly as much as I should. I admit that when I hear that sort of talk I just shut down. I think to myself - "H, do you think my life is a party? Why can I maintain interest in you no matter the difficulty and the slightest thing throws you off?"
Friday night H stepped up to the plate with no prompting and it was nice. Last night he got back from four hours of yard work in the rain and cold and an hour and a half drive each way to his disabled friend's house and after he got settled I gave him a nice all over body massage. Then he starts this goofy debate at bedtime about whether or not there is any value to Hollywoodized biographies of famous people e.g. Johnny Cash. Of course, he is totally exhausted but while we weren't arguing it was impossible to segue from that to starting a sexual connection. The atmosphere was charged with exhaustion and vague discontent, we hadn't seen each other all day - he left in the late morning after sleeping in and did not return until 9:30pm (his friend fixed dinner for him and the boys).
Anywho, I'm not upset. In my mind every time he chooses not to ML during the fertile window HE chooses for his goals to be farther away. I would like another baby but I have three and I could be happy with that too. So, I got up and tried my new "Goddess Workout" DVD - it is a belly dance workout and is very sexy and female affirming. So...onward we go. H has one more day then the fertile window closes.
