Well Stig, I think I am listening better. H gave another H style compliment. Tonight at dinner I happened to mention something about how we met and H piped up and said, "So you see it was totally random or a gift from God if you ask me." It is difficult for me because although I know that my H loves me it doesn't often seem as he loves the sexual side of me. It is more like he loves the mother/partner/wifey side and is suspicious of the sexy side. The only time he compliments me that way is two seconds before he approaches me for sex - he'll say "hey sexy" or sometimes before church he will jokingly say that I am going to hell for making the priest think those thoughts due to my outfit.
I just get so confused. When I write it all out I sound like such a whiner but yet, my H really doesn't approach me very often for sex, he has largely stopped passionatelly kissing me except during sex, has gotten less and less experimental, gets angry/defensive whenever i want to discuss any changes, greater frequency etc... Am I just that tough to satisfy? Is it really too much to ask to have sex a couple of times/week most weeks and have some variety and passion? I HATE IT when two or three weeks pass between times we ML and it just doesn't seem to phase him at all. I HATE IT when we don't spend much quality time due to life circumstances. Again, doesn't seem to phase him. He was single for so long, with few long term or sexual R's it is as if I am kind of like the extra rich chocolate cake - it is nice to have, not a necessity and something to indulge in occasionally.
I am just spilling thoughts randomly here. Jump in where it makes sense.
