I can understand how it can happen that things just don't line up to create the circumstances for motherhood. I have been lucky in that regard. Likewise, I do understand why wanting another baby would be unfathomable to some given my sadness and discontent in our sexual R. However, I think sometimes I get so unhappy/baffled about the sexual R precisely because the rest works so well. H and I have an uncanny ability to parent together. We rarely argue over childrearing issues and I know that my H is a wonderful Dad. Strangely, granting his "wish" to have more biological children doesn't move us any further from my goals in my mind although I am concerned that the medical aspect isn't really helpful. During my last pregnancy H seemed to find me generally fascinating and lovely. It was quite romantic and very sexual. Now, a screaming baby does (for a time) tend to make things challenging but since I'm not going anywhere and neither is H we have time to work on it. Sometimes I think the biggest mistake I make is lack of patience.
Lil, I don't mind the challenge. I have asked myself that very question. I also wanted to mention that it is never too late to parent. You may not have the option of biological parenthood but you can be a Godmother, Aunt, Foster parent, Big sister etc... There are so many kids in need of guidance and you are such a loving, caring person you would be wonderful at it. Didn't you say that BF had children? Are you close to them?
