Thanks - yes, of course, you are right. My problem is that I have conditioned myself to view the famine as not being a day or two or even a week of only getting potatoes and no meat but more a fast of a couple of weeks where I am literally starving. It isn't always that way but it has been enough so that in my heart I believe that is what will happen.
Our famines tend to be complete famines where the most I can expect of H is a halfhearted peck and a fanny pat every day for weeks. I usually start off okay on days one through four or so but as the EC dwindles to nothing and I begin heaving around that block of resentment I have trouble being the initiator of anything - snuggling, affection, sex, sexual innuendo - I drop into a pit of "he doesn't want me/love me where I reside with that block of resentment until I can regroup myself or until H shows signs that he notices I'm there. I realize that this is a very unhealthy cycle and it is the glass that I choose to see as half empty.
