I also agree with OT that he is projecting his inner hatred onto me. By the way, since this started he has also decided that he wants nothing to do with his parents or brothers and sister. He hates them for how he was treated as a kid.

Since it is apparent that my H has severe self esteem issues how can I get him professional help without him thinking that I am trying to control him or change his mind?

P.S. You are all right, I cannot take his hateful words to heart. Its just in the heat of the moment when the blade goes in and twists....