RB, you could be right. I do think that the OW is is influencing him. He says that they talk but there is nothing going on and he doesn't love her. Frankly, I don't believe it. I went a little crazy regarding her. I know she is unmarried and has a 10 year old D. I said, "Oh, she is so perfect? How did she end up with a baby and no husband.....? I know it was mean and definitely not the way I should have DB'd but I was so hurt. These words cut me to the core. It was like he took a knife and stabbed me in the heart and just kept twisting.
He says he wants to stay in a platonic relationship and raise our children together. I told him I don't know if I can do that. It's like he wants me to be the one to leave and end things. It would take the guilt off of him. I am so torn. OT would probably blast me about now, but as hurt as I am I love this man and hope he would consider talking to a professional to see if he can get over these feelings. You all probably think I am a complete idiot, but I just can't give up.
