RB, you have given me a kick in the butt a few times and I thank you for that. Unfortunately, that is when I thought the issue was the A and the OW. At this point, I cannot blame anything on the affair. My H has apparently felt this way for years. The OW probably intensified these feelings in the fact that he saw there was more to life than me, and my illicit past. I make him sick, he even questioned if he was the father of our second child - how dare he????? I am with him because of his high morals. I am not saying that I was a slut, but it was the 80's and I was young and stupid. With my H I found the life that I was so desperately looking for. I found my soulmate, my best friend, my companion, a person I could count on in good times and bad. But all he saw was the person that I was. It doesn't matter to him that I have been honest, devoted and faithful, he cannot get past my old way of life. He says I settled for him. Which couldn't be farther from the truth.
Anyway, to continue to DB would be pointless. I will continue to come back here for a while since I have come to care for some of you (you know who you are) and truely hope to see many success stories. Again, thank you.
