Goodbye to all my friends that have given me so much encouragement and support to fight for my marriage; GH, OT, RB, Always, etc.
I am officially done DB'ing. It all came out tonight over dinner. We had a huge blowout. H cannot stand me because of my past sexual experiences (before we met), he called me a whore and says he cannot touch me EVER! I tried to tell him that it is not fair that he judge me by my past, that I am a changed person since I met him. He doesn't want to hear it. He wants to stay together for our kids. I don't know how I can do that. Regardless, there is absolutely nothing I can do that can change his mind. I make him sick and I repulse him.
So, thanks again for all your kind words. I wish you all the best and pray that all of you heal your relationships with your spouses. For all the work that you have done, I question if they even deserve you, but I know that you are all fantastic people for working so hard to save your families. God Bless You.
