Thanks guys, I really do feel like I am moving to a better place. Everything in my life before the A revolved around me. I really was selfish I just didn't know it until now. I wanted everyone to make me happy. If I felt bad I wanted everyone to know it and feel sorry for me. Only recently I have realized that I can't expect others to make me happy. Only I can find my true happiness. Watching my nephew was something that I didn't want to be doing, if I wanted a baby I could of had one myself plus it was taking me away from time with my own children. So...I stopped watching him. Sure, my brother and his wife were upset and so were my parents who thought it was something I "should" do for my family. But it was something that I had to do for me and my happiness. I cannot just sit back and let life happen to me. If I want something I have to go out and get it. More to come....
