Update: Yesterday we got digital cable. We are huge Sopranos fans. When H got home he was excited to watch last weeks episode. He was putting on his shoes to go to the store when son asked him where he was going. He told him and said to me "I'm going to get us some beer and lottery tickets HONEY" Again, with the honey - it was probably another slip of the tongue but I'll take what little morsals I can get.
RB, your absolutely correct about going down cheeseless tunnels. I seriously want to save my marriage and I read DR daily but I seem to have a problem actually applying the techniques. I was seeing a counselor for a while and she was impressed with my marriage saving knowledge that I learned from Michelle. She tried a cognitive thinking excercise with me that I guess I didn't stick to. Everytime I was tempted to talk about our relationship with my H I was to say to myself "If I try to fix it, I will make it worse" I am going to start drilling that in my brain again. Whenever I try to talk to my H about our situation, my emotions take over; I get angry and usually end up crying. Definitley a cheeseless tunnel. My 180 is not to bring it up again.
Are there no consequences for him? There are, his guilty conscience. Everytime he comes home and looks in his beautiful childrens faces should be enough right there.
I am hoping that the A loses it appeal and fizzles out on its own. By me pressuring him and acting all desparate I am actually prolonging the A.
As for the Cheaters Diet, wouldn't it be something if we could bottle it and make a profit. I was never huge but chunky, 5 ft and 135 lbs. I now weigh between 108 - 110 and can wear size 2 and 4. When friends see me and ask how I did it, I too feel silly but I just say I'm watching my carbs.
