Quote: The thing that continues to confuse me is that she seems to be pulling back. I guess that's typical where they get closer and then pull away again? It hurts a little bit, especially when coupled with the uncertainty of the OM situation in my mind.
I feel like we are on the same page. My H was very distant from me last night. He went out for a little while after work - says for a few beers - don't really know.
Quote: I am still resisting any kind of R talk, and the internal pressure to just blurt out questions and proclamations is intense these days since I know at the very least they would disrupt the limbo I see as evil right now.
I just want to tell her I need more out of this...but she knows that. I just want to tell her I want more, different intimacy...but she's not ready for that yet. I want to just hug her, kiss her, ML to her...but I'm not ready for that yet. I want so much right now...but I don't know if that matters to her yet. I want this to be over, for our life to move on in a new, positive way...but I am not sure yet that's possible.
Like I have felt during this process up to now, I keep feeling that talk will solve our problems, but I know it won't. Like most of you I just feel like if she KNEW how I felt, really KNEW it, then she would just stop all this and we would live happily ever after.
GH, this is exactly how I feel. I just want this to be over. I want to feel love again. Will I ever feel it again? I don't want it from anyone other than my H.
My horoscope says that I have much patience, which I will need to begin to sort out my feelings. For what its worth, pretty accurate for today.
Hang in there, I will try to be there for you as you have been many times for me.
