Ok, it was, and it was. Don't know why I thought YOU of all people would have a problem with that. I guess I forgot you respected directness. Well, I was that at least. As for her reaction, I don't have a CLUE why she would be that way, and IF she was going to have to be that way, why answer at all? She goes for hours not answering, why do it this time? Of course, I have SEVERAL clues, but none I want to dwell on. I'm SURE I will get a call in a few minutes or before she picks the boys up from school, explaining where she was, etc. That's her way. Will it be a lie? Who knows, but NOW you know why I am unwilling to explore (at least with her anyway) these issues I am discovering. Until she recommits to us and understands that for her to build back my trust, she will not really be able to just be "out" without me thinking, well just thinking, then I will be unwilling to fully invest in her again. It's just how it is.
I will continue to work on me, not dewll on what she is doing and go on with my life. She's still in it by default and there are things I am comfortable doing with her, even without all the "rest" of our R (whatever it is right now). I will continue to do those things and the rest will have to wait.
