And, as for me addressing my issues, well, it's pretty much all I can think about right now. I need to turn that into something productive.
GH, I think its very clear that YOU ARE. It is wonderful and really rather amazing. Whatever is going on, it doesn't seem to me as though you were at all likely to continue to use back rubs as a way to mask your own issues -- if that was going on at all.
I was just wondering what you were getting out of it up to this point. Touching someone who seems unreceptive to resentful to repulsed doesn't feel very good, so it seemed to me it had to be doing something pretty important for you in order for you to continue the behavior. It being a way to feel good about yourself as being the "open P" would be a pretty powerful motivator.
