Oh, Mama, I have already stepped back after that awkward kiss thing last night. The problem is that if I don't automatically start rubbing her back when we go to bed, or are sitting on the couch, she acts like I am "acting strange" because I always do it. Sure, I could refrain, but then she asks and acts irritated when she does. She used to say that all the time, that she always had to ASK me to do things like that, and how come I just didn't do them on my own (um...I guess I could ask her the same question...in due time). SO, I am trying, but it's hard when her mood, or acceptance changes moment by moment.
So, my overall idea is that I am going to continue the back rub thing when appropriate but maybe just try to not be in situations where I do it so much, and as for anything else, just back off for awhile.
I am just wondering then how I know when she's ready. If I keep "doing" things like the kiss last night, she may see it as unwanted pressure. Overall, I am ok with this. I guess she'll let me know when she's ready. Until then I try NOT to pursue so much and just go on working on me.
BTW, I started a new workout program a couple days ago. I want to tone a bit now that I am at my target weight. I don't have time to go to the gym anymore so I am working out at home. It's going well so far. I'm in pain so I guess I am doing something right, lol.
