In the interest of honesty here and with myself, my problem with romance is much more basic, or more complicated depending on how I look at it, than I am making it out to be. Fact is that it's been YEARS, maybe our entire marriage, since my W and I kissed outside the bedroom. I mean that too. We just don't do that. I don't know why. I think it may have to do something with a comment I made LONG ago about not liking her smoker's breath, but who knows. Bottom line is that I don't know if it's me, her, or both, but since it's been so long, I feel like a kid, anticipating the first time all over again. Sure, it sounds cute and endearing, but I assure you it's nerve racking and terrible to be a 35 year old married man afraid to kiss his wife. More than that, I am not even sure how to anymore. I guess it's all part of the process, but I don't know if I should talk to her about it, or just do it. I know OT and others (especially the ladies, lol) would say to just do it. I suppose I will have to but even getting close enough to kiss her would be a considerable change from how things are up to this point. Sorry for being so adolescent, but it's a hurdle I need to get over. In the bedroom, things are great (or so I thought) but it's the other aspects of intimacy that have suffered over the years. I want this to change, and I am determined that it start with me.
