(repeating to myself "I'm a stud. I'm a stud. I'm a stud..." )
- Chuckle. I was very tempted to edit this out because I thought it might sound...wel..."gay." (thats right, Im unabashedly un-PC VL and IRL. My gay friends are cool with this too as most have a sense of humor.)
But I left it in to prove a point. If I were to repeat the stud lines right after I discovered OM I would have rolled eyes and said WTF are you talking about, you Fing dork?" Felt goofy, not congruent, and uncomfortable.
It's a test. If you get yourself to the point of positive self-talk and confidence where repeating this in your head makes you smile with a "knowing" feeling...you've reached a crucial point. A point where you're not trying to convince yourself anymore. You just think, "damned straight. And I only need to think/say it once."
Only when you lose the self-conscious awkwardness can you truly feel you can approach your W/SO with zero fear of rejection or even a care in the world if it does happen. Why be unfazed? Because it ain't you. Sex is an normal genetic drive/desire.
And for the SO to suggest the desire abnormal or otherwise is her/his issue and runs counter to all biological drive and genetic codings.
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As BF would say, I don't make up the rules.
-Stigmata-
The difference between a warrior and an ordinary man is the warrior views everything as a challenge; the ordinary man views everything as either a blessing or a curse.
-Yaqui shaman Don Juan-
...and that holds 2x true for nice guy wussies, DJ
