Have you accepted the fact that if your H has normal testosterone levels and is not having sex with you, he is almost certainly MBing on a regular basis? How did/does this make you feel? I will suggest that you won't make progress until you accept this reality and then get past it
I'm not sure where you are going here. Are you saying I need to accept the fact that my H MB? Fine. I don't care one way or the other. I do it. It's not a big deal to me to go right to the O without all the bells and whistles of a sexual production, never mind the fight that usually accompanies it in our house.
I have asked my H about MB and he acts a little embarrassed and admits to doing it "once in a while". Maybe once a month. I believe that because I barely MB more than that
What do you mean get past it?