Thanks HP!
Look, 3 years ago we did not have fireworks. My H was an awkward, inhibited man who refused to own up to having fantasies, or even desiring me for that matter.
 Yep. That sounds just like my H.
I couldn't stop daydreaming, yearning, for passion from him--fireworks. As we have worked through our issues, he has started showing desire on a regular basis and admits his fantasies (though we're nowhere near doing any of them yet, darn it) and guess what? My yearning for it has dissipated as he is starting to display his true sexual self. I think this is why I am really struggling right now, because the last few weeks feel like we have been backtracking. His withdrawal and inability to understand that I need him to be more assertive is pissing me off.
the reality of little ones DOES add an element of anti-fireworks to our lives, whether we like it or not. Tell me something I don't know. Kids do not equate with sexy.
I suppose I was just encouraging Chrome to not look at the Grand Finale fireworks and say, Damn I'll never have that.....
 This is where I go but, but, but.
I want Grand Finale Fireworks!!!
(LFL having a tantrum) (nothing to see here)