You have such a nurturing soul. Thanks for your kind words and understanding.
I sometimes wonder if I have a problem connecting with people, or I should say I HAD a problem. It seems to be so easy now. But my M was built on the old me, and thus all the old issues are in play. How do you flush away the old and start from ground zero? I mean, I hear lots of people saying it, but how do you REALLY do it? I need a reset button.
"She doesn't see a fraction, I bet, of what you hold inside you."
No, she really doesn't. Partly because she can be judgemental and dismissive of my ideas. Granted I do have a lot of outlandish and silly thoughts, but they are my thoughts.
"But I do hear you. Me and plenty of others. I'm thinking of you King Chrome."
That means a lot to me.
Chrome You're such a sweetheart. Don't like to hear that your W is dismissive or judgmental. That is sooo not how you are so I can't see someone being like that to you. Again, you need to call her on that when she is doing it. Not cool. As for the reset button, there is none unfortunately. We have to deal with our M's at the point they are, with all the history that goes along with it. All you can do is make new history starting right now. Stop the bad patterns with your W. You know what they are. And most of all, be yourself. Don't hide the true you from her. She needs to see it, as different as that may be from how she now sees you.
