"Wish I could offer you some words of encouragement. But I am standing right there beside you on this one in lonely land. And it sucks."
I asked you this on your thread, but it really doesn't matter where it gets posted. What are your thoughts during your most depressed moments? Not just the history of your depression, but what things run through your head? What makes you cry? What makes you feel angry at the world? What makes you feel like it isn't worth it? You said something about dreams that you have, those were pretty intense dreams. But what are the thoughts that keep you awake at night, or make you not want to get out of bed in the morning.
Of course, only if you feel like sharing. I found that talking to people directly about my innermost fears and worst thoughts staved off that "dagger to the chest" feeling that I had 55 minutes out of every hour of the day. If you think it would help to get it all off your chest, or even part, I will listen and try to help.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
